Last month's happenings

Peeps
sorry for the long hiatus. Been busy and in deep thoughts. This first few months has proven to be the hardest in all my life. But on the bright side, I'm glad and thankful for all the blessings that has been bestowed upon me.
i celebrated new year alone at home. CNY also i stayed at home watching fireworks from my balcony. been meeting new friends, some are for keeps, some are just not worth thinking of. met old friends, faced disappointments continuously, hardships in relationships...making tough but worthy decisions.
Met the One...hoping for the relationship to grow and blossom.
Towards the end of March...thinking of my late Dad as his 1st anniversary arrived. i'm sorry, Dad, for not becoming the daughter u hoped to be. I'm sorry Mommy, i'm not who u expected to grow into. I'm sorry Frank and John, for not appreciating u as i shud.
Life is an ongoing lesson.There's no exams or assignments, just consequences of decisions we made every second of our journey.
I miss my family...from the time I opened my eyes in the morning till i shut my eyes to sleep. In my daily tasks, they're constantly on my mind...thinking if they're still alive and around...how would my life be.
I never showed my inner feelings to others...not that i dont want to but nobody listens.
still hoping to see the silver linings in the dark clouds that hovers over me....still standing tall over people who try to bring me down. deafening my ears to all those negative ignorances people threw at me. blinding my eyes from seeing all the things that broke my heart. walking away and brushing the dust off me after being pushed by those who would love to see me crash and burn.
mending my broken heart...putting my trust together after shattered to pieces. sending my hopes and wishes to the wind and stars in the sky, in hope that someone catches it.
April, another new month to tread on. Life, as in my opinion...is an neverending Alice's rabbit hole. They may caught u in surprise with trials and tribulations.
guide me when i need light, lift me when i fall, hold my hands when i'm lost, strenghten me when i'm weak, shield me when i'm under attack....those are my wishes for April 2012.