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Old friend

Since I posted my YM ID I was visited by an old friend. Kak Rozi, thanks sbb masih ingat saya kat sini. Rindu Labuan, rindu everybody.

Sleepy

after having kuetiau goreng with bullseye egg (telur mata kobau la!),im feeling like floating. my eyes lazily roamed my pc monitor.my hands were heavier and my coffee doesnt work me anymore.....shoot!!

Happy Deepavali

Happy Deepavali to all Indian friends out there. Have a jolly good holiday and a great celebration!

Announcement

Im officially single
Brokenhearted
Bruised
Bent
That's what I get for my 31st bday
lucky me...

My 'souvenirs'

Terrible, ain't it? All bcoz of McDonald's...'puni' or 'kempunan'. I don't knw how long will it take me to heal and scars fade away.

Bad day

On my way to work this morning, i have a nagging feeling of going to makan McDee.so I went to town this afternoon but it turn out to be that I didn't have the time to eat in so i tapau la. but i didnt eat a bit before riding on my scooter. So I head to the office hungrily and at a traffic light a lady driver wanted to turn left without signal light.so she turned without seeing me and i flew a few feet, fortunately no cars from behind. my bike's ok but scratched. I had graze cuts on my right arm and my right knee is swollen with tugging feeling as i typed this. as the elders say i'm actually 'puni' or kempunan. shit, i feel like hell.my sweater is torn,my slacks also torn. i feel like a bloated puffer fish.

ANOTHER SHOT FROM A COLLEAGUE'S CAM

This is taken using a colleague's camera. I like the atmosphere of this pic.Very warm, casual and natural.

HAPPY BESTDAY TO ME

TODAY IS MY BDAY HAHAHAHA!!!

KUDOS TO MY COLLEAGUES FOR PREPARING TWO CAKES FOR ME.

LOVE U GUYS!

Yummy muffin

Today my colleague belanja us the yummy muffins. Smells like choc, looks like choc, but it's not choc.it's orange walnut muffin.....*sigh* life...is good.

Mom's 2nd Anniversary

Yesterday (11 August 08) was Mom's 2nd Anniversary. I took the day off and went to the cemetery with Dad and cleaned up the place. We said our rosary there and then prepared for the night's rosary at home. It was a sombre day. Dad was quiet. I knew deep down he's still very much grieving Mom and Frank.

BEFORE THE CLEANING

After cleaning (note the stupid flowers I got from a local stingy florist)

Dad cleaning up

Rosary at home that nite

Makan time

haru biru day

Today is Monday.Plus, new rules for our dealers effective today made our office phone the hotlines of the year.Some asked for clarification, some to complain, others to make us irritated.Stupid upper management, made rules and regulations disregard of what the effect may happen later.All they knw is to change and make it look modern and nice but the fact is it made our work tripled and tangled....dang!!

My new office

before (on the left is the door)

after (on the left is STILL the door)

huhu before and after pic of my office. But nevertheless i still sit next to the door (dang!).

Thousands apologies....

Hurmmmm sorry for the long absence. Been busy and no time to update my blog. Well nothing much happened. Just me going to and fro to work. Next month Aug 11th is Mommy's 2nd anniversary and we're having a rosary at home. All are welcomed.

Another misfortune

Actually I'm not in the mood to celebr8 Gawai Dayak this year for 2 reasons. One of it is that we are still missing both Mommy and Frankie as this is their fave season of all. Secondly is that recently on 3rd May our house was broken into. Dad lost his wallet which contained his month's pension because he wanted to pay for his bills. He just took out RM1000++ to pay his credit card and a new set of dentures.

I was sleeping upstairs in my room and Dad went to a nearby shop (can be seen from the house) and my elder brother Johnny was downstairs sitting on a chair. The thief(s) climbed the back fence bending it a bit and took Dad's wallet on top of the tv right in front of Johnny's eyes (my brother is handicapped) and he dumped the wallet with all docs into a nearby back lane which later was found by two secondary chinese boys. They only took the cash money but didnt withdraw any money from the ATM cards.

I think I knew who did this and I'm waiting for the right moment to catch them. If I get them, they will never be the same again, physically and mentally. These kids are school dropouts and some of them are still in school wasting their parents money. One of them is my ex next door neighbour who always spend his time at a local cybercafe playing games after school (or do he even go to school?). He flashes a new handphone recently. Where else would he get the money? His father is a boat/ferry operator, his mother is a coffee shop waitress.His 17 y.o. sister is a prostitute driving around her pimp's car showing off her stupidity and his second sister is also a prostitute in the making.

I'm sooooo disappointed because this has been a series of misfortune that happened to my family in the span of 2 years!!

Tell me, is it wrong for me for not believing in Him?

Selamat Gawai Dayak

I wud like to wish all my Iban,Bidayuh, Kayan Kenyah and all other races that celebrates Gawai Dayak

SELAMAT ARI GAWAI DAYAK

GAYU GURU GERAI NYAMAI NGUAN MENOA

that falls on Thursday 1st June 2008

Frankie's 1st Anniversary

1 year old Frankie in Belaga, Song Kapit

Sweet dear Frankie at Belaga resthouse (notice his 2 precious pacifiers hanging from his neck)

This pic was taken for his passport in December 2006 for his Bangkok trip scheduled 2 months after his passing

Frankie's final resting

Dearest friends,

Today (2nd May) is Frankie's 1st Anniversary. My dad and I wanted to have a simple rosary at home tonite but we have special evening mass at church today by our new elected Bishop Joseph Hii so we postpone the rosary to tomorrow nite.

Please pray for Frankie's soul and all the souls that has gone their final rest.

Thanks.

Miracle of a butterfly

Last Sunday (19 Apr) my dad fetched me from work coz it was raining in the morning and I couldn't ride the scooter. So we went to run some errands and our first stop was a car workshop to get the car aligned and change of spare tyre. He gave the keys to the workshop's owner and the guy asked one of his employees ( a very young boy probably underage) to drive the car into the workshop while my dad went to the lottery shop nearby and I went to Guardian on the next building. We didn't noticed that my dad left his Samsung hp on the car's dashboard. After the whole business was done, we went to a hypermarket to get some groceries and then head home.

It was until late Sunday noon he asked me whether I saw his hp around. I helped looking around the house at the places he usually left the phone (near the tv, by the sofa etc) but no avail. I rang the phone many many times and yet the phone is ringing but there's no vibration or sound at all around the house. I was thinking if the phone was stolen then the culprit must have thrown the simcard away but my dad said probably the guy still want to use his prepaid credit (RM18.83 to be exact) so that's why the phone is still switched on. I was soooooo upset and sent 2 smses to 'whoever' took the phone asking them to send the phone back to me. I cried coz that was my hp I bought with my student's loan money ( I know, I know...) Sayang baahhhh...

By Monday morning, I gave up. So I told my dad to forget about it and promised to get him a new one after I get my paycheck. Amazingly he's still very positive about the hp and said that the phone is not missing, it's just misplaced.

That Monday evening after we had our dinner and watched tv, suddenly a big butterfly (well, actually it was a huge beautiful moth) landed right next to me on the sofa I was sitting on. I was surprised at first because it just plopped next to me and when I touched it, it didn't move at all. FYI, I was still upset and sad about the missing hp. So when I saw the butterfly suddenly I felt soooo calm. (Seriously, man!) I don't know why but I liked its presence there so I took out my camera and snapped a few shots with flash on but still that thing won't budge so I said to dad it must have like its pic taken har har har...Then after about half an hour perched on the sofa with me, it flew to the wall and guess where it landed? Right next to mom's pic frame. I was surprised so I took a few shots. Corny but amazing. Then I remembered 2 nites before on Saturday I saw the same butterfly on our front gate while I was feeding my cats outside the house. My cats were so excited to see it and watched it with intense interest but I made sure my cats won't be able to get it.

Then we went to bed with the butterfly still in the house. The next morning (Tuesday) I woke up and went to the kitchen and saw the butterfly perched on the cupboard where my mom displayed her tea sets and expensive dish. So I went to work as usual that day.

By evening when I came back from work, dad told me that the butterfly 'returned' his hp. I asked him what does he mean by that. He told me that the hp was found at a fellow rosary group member's house where my dad attended on the Saturday nite (the day the hp was 'missing'). I asked my dad how come the owner didn't notice the calls that I made to the hp and the morning alarm that my dad set to ring every morning at 630am since the hp was set at a full volume.

Well, we never knew why or how but I believed that the butterfly that came was my mom and her presence calmed me down as if as to tell me to be patient and keep hoping. I know that this is kind of corny but hey...it's a wonderful story isn't it?

The butterfly just flew and landed next to the pic frame

Look Into My Eyes

Look into my eyes... I want food...Lots of food..Truckloads of food....

She looks like a pygmy cat with big head and small body

Mesmerised? That's my fave old meow...Mrs Ibuk (Ibuk means Makcik or Auntie in Iban). Her actual age is a mystery since she's been around since I'm in secondary school ( 10-12 years ago). She's still in good shape with the exception of a few lost teeth so when she eats she couldn't grab the food using her teeth from the ground so she would hold the food in both her paws and toss it to the air and she would catch it with her mouth. Smart huh? That's my cat....

Introducing my new baby

FRONT VIEW

LEFT SIDE VIEW

RIGHT SIDE VIEW

COPPER RED BABY

This is my new Karisma 125 scooter. Whaddaya think??

I love cats

This is Petot. He is the king of the house. Most pampered brat (by me of coz!)

Petot: AAAAAhhhhhh let me go !!!!!

Me: Muahs muahs muahs kiss kiss kiss.....

Petot : Aaaaahhhhh...better. I prefer bear hugs to furry kisses..... (lick lick)

More to come....

to mr buwau,thanks for visiting my blog. really appreciate it.
as for ur guess abt my dad, yes ur correct. he is indeed whom u said he is.

My Pride and Joy

Aaaaahhh...it's my baby....

Thanks All

This pic was taken on my eldest brother John (middle, yellow shirt) 39th birthday after his trip to the clinic after having his xrays taken for medical purpose.

He was flanked by Dad (left) and Mom (right). Mom kept on ranting on how old she looked in this pic. We took many same shots but she kept asking me to delete the pics. She did looked tired in this pic. Even Frank told me that Mom looked unusually tired and aged when she went for her visiting trip to Sabah to meet Frank in Aug the same year.

Exactly a month, 3 weeks and 4 days after this pic was taken and 11 days after the Sabah trip, she passed away peacefully, leaving this haunting pic of her in my vivid memory of what she said. Frank was awfully devastated...he never saw the signs of her passing. She never get to share her experiences with me like she always do after coming back from any trips she had.

This is one pic I will never forget for the rest of my life bcoz this is one of the last pics I took before her passing.

F***ed Up...

Shoot!!Today was a big waste of time.Our telco system just gone haywire and nothing we can do to update our sales. My manager kept ranting at me to speed things up in updating the sales but hey...wasn't my fault. So much for the hype of e-forms and stuff....once the systems f***s up, we will be f***ed up too. sorry for the harsh language but I need to destress. I'm tired laaaa........

Guess who??

This is Frank and Mom during Pesta Kaul in Kuala Igan (1981). As I look back to this picture,it occured to me that Frank and Mom has always been so close.

In my memory (I was 4 years old then) it was the happiest days ever. Picnic by the beach...seeing the boats and events. I have a picture of me and Frank sitting on a log that one day I'll promise to find (currently I don't know where it is) which I think personally the best pic I've ever took with Frank.

This pic was taken on a long boat which was the main method of travelling during those days.That's Mom in front (they said I looked so much like her...) and at the back from left are the staffs from Klinik Desa Kuala Igan. Yup, that's Frank in the blue shirt and 'moi' in the striped dress dreaming away. I remembered that during that age I used to dreamed a lot...always staring blankly into far distances. Why.....??

Labuan Oh Labuan

Owh man,i really miss that small but friendly island.cheap liquors,cheap beers, cheap chocs, cheap ciggies. cheap clothing materials, great nitelife...i love the view from Alpha Apartment. Mawilla and its great seafood....When will i see u again? * sigh*

Work,work,work.....

Tired,lethargic,not enuff sleep...dats wat i can say about my work now. working mon to fri 8am-530pm and sat 8am-1pm...i only have sunday for absolute rest. arrghhhhh.....anyways, im thankful for the job la heheheh...just got my 1st paycheck....not much la...can oso la...hehehe...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

This is the final resting place for Mom and Frankie. He is placed on the right side and Mom on the left side. FYI,Dad was putting the tiles and statue on the day Frankie passed away in Labuan with the money sent by Frankie in April 2007.Until today, I still have a hard time fathoming the fact of all this things that has happened.

ERRRRKKK...

what about the title?nothing...just to get ur attention.hehehe...
Last election day (8 March) fell on my late Mom's 59th birthday.It was an emotional day not becoz of the election results {honestly,who cares?BN still wins majority...no major biggie!! :) }but becoz it's another memorable day about Mom.
My dad and I went to the Catholic cemetery in Jalan Salim (near Farley) after Sunday Mass for short prayer where she laid side by side to Frank. As I stood there cleaning the tombs and staring at their pics, i felt a tug in my heart as i realised that i still didn't accept that they're gone forever.I missed them soooo much.
God, I wish i know how to chase these feelings of loneliness away.I became more emotional when I saw Dad shed his tears as he said his prayer to Mom and Frank. Then it occured to me that Mom and Frank's loss brought great impact to me more than i knew i was. Shit, I never looked at it that way.

It's been a while...

Hey, it's been a while since i last wrote.been fighting with my consciousness and rationality few months back.so many excess baggage to deal with..hehe...

news about me?ermmm just got a job in Sibu.working for a telco distributor dealing prepaid cards for dealers around Sibu. if u happen to have a shop wanting to sell prepaid cards,do drop me a line. i can say that we are the biggest distributor in Sarawak.

well, thanks for coming to read about my blog.i'm deeply honoured...