I dont know what to say....

im broke, homeless, begging, and shameless.....
how?
long story. it's a chain reaction. that leads one to another.
but this beginning of the year proves to be very hard on me....like any other first few months of the past years. why?
in 2008, i cant concentrate on studies anymore, so in feb 2008 i went home to sibu, leaving my 4 sems of studies hanging...
in 2009, january, i found out my bf was married.
in 2010, before cny, i had a misunderstanding with my bosses coz one of my colleagues ratted me out.
in 2011, my dad passed away in early march. followed by my brother in june. that was just too much for me....
in 2012, i was broke like hell and my bike kept broke down. and i was accused of having an affair with my niece's bf. he never told me who he was until i found out who he is. and he didnt back me up, instead he blamed me for not being careful.
in 2013, i was jobless. had to work odd jobs babysitting and becoming a pastry worker. its hard coz the hours are long and the boss is moody.
in 2014, well.....here i am. everything is going in the wrong direction.